ok so i decided I needed a "before" shot like they do on tv.  This is actually quite a ghastly picture of me, but ya know, the camera never lies.  I have friends who always look great in pictures.  Sadly I do not.  I also have friends who stand a certain way or hold the camera at a certain angle as it makes them look thinner.  I thought about doing that here, but let's get real.  This is a weight loss blog and I need to be honest with myself and everyone reading this.  No matter what angle I take a picture from or how I stand, the truth is I AM FAT.  Now, that does not make me a bad person and I am not offended by saying it or hearing you say it.  It's the truth. Sometimes I reference that I am fat and people say, "oh you should not say that".  I never understood why.  Yes, I get it can impact some people's self-esteem and it sounds mean as being fat in our society is taboo.  But I call it like it is. Hold the presses, in case you did not notice, I am a fatty.  I am also loving, very intelligent, compassionate, and very funny.  The good far outweighs (no pun intended) the bad so my self esteem is solid.  So if you are offended by the word fat, I apologize. I mean no harm.  It is a mere description. So this is the beauteous before shot. Woot woot America's Next Top Model, here I come...lol.  Please do not expect a miraculous after shot in a few months.  It will take me a long time to get this weight off--hopefully before I am dead. But I am hoping that when I post my next pic you will say: 

                       

 "hey, she's not as fat." 

My next pic will be posted around May 15th.